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Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Stress..
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There's so much that I need to do, need to think.
Trying to accomodate to everyone.
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Sorry Sevens, Because of my playfulness, I got injured.
I really hope I won't pull everyone down.
I'll give it my best.
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Sorry dear, I keep making you unhappy..
I understand how you feel. Love you.
11:47 AM
im alone; im emo;
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Damn it I can concentrate properly now.
My mind already on holiday mode but I kept switching it back to Study mode.
Gotta focus gotta focus.. gotta focus.. gotta focus!!
Last paper tomorrow, make it a good one don't regret later.
Self-discipline dude, forcing myself.
I don't wanna get de-registered and stay back another semester and all.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Ok back to study.
10:35 PM
im alone; im emo;
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
WOW I ACTUALLY CAME IN HERE!
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Something must be wrong with me I think. LOL.
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Come on Cash, this is the last lap of stupid exams, boring lectures, freaking question-bombarding teachers during presentations, out of my world assignments, and most importantly stupid exams. After this is easy life attachment.. I think. My friends that went for attachment said they rather come back for lectures, but to us, the still-stuck-in-school-and-want-something-new guys, we think that we would rather go for attachment than these boring letures. Oh well, attachment sounds better to me though. hahas! My mum said she could fetch me to attachment every morning as it is near our house. YESSSSSSSSSSSS!! Its been a long time since secondary school that I can get chauffeured to school every single working day(schooling day).
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Ok enough talk, JIA YOU GUYS!!! TO THOSE WHO STILL HAVE PAPER TILL FRIDAY LIKE ME! =D
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TO THOSE FINISH PAPER LIAO PLEASE GO AWAY. Ehhh~ no la joking my friends~ hahas. Enjoy your holidays!! =D
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Come on Sevens, we will bet everything on this friday, make it or break it. No, there's no break it, there's only make it, cause I BELIEVE!
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Jia you dear. Stand strong and believe.
Endure through this, you can make it too, cause I believe in you. =]
Love you dear. Wei ni er tiao. =]
10:09 PM
im alone; im emo;
Sunday, May 17, 2009
..All I ever wanted,
is to dance.
But I guess there's nothing I can do.
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Thanks for everything dear, I love you. =]
9:08 PM
im alone; im emo;
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Groove In The West
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Checkmatez, the super no mo qi team. Almost everytime we will start will different steps. We will step onto each other's leg, we will argue bout how to do this step and which is the possible best way to change into a certain formation and stuffs. We always don't have much time to train together as we have our individual commitments. We always get distracted easily and start to play and waste time. But despite all this, I LOVE BEING PART OF THIS TEAM! =D
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The fun and laughter we shared. Cause Chien Yen always, i repeat ALWAYS, do stupid things, then we will somehow try music and do it together with the beat. WASIVEN WORSE, you all always laugh at almost everything I say. Hahas! Thanks eh I feel very happy when got people laugh at the stupid things i said, although sometimes when my plans fail then will awkward silence la hor~ LOL. I everytime sing wrong lyrics at Mad, I'm yelling over me hmm~ She yelling over her hmm~ LOL! Ok maybe this part not very funny, but I things its damn funny when i sing wrong and laughed like shit while you guys all blur like cow. LOL. Thanks for the fun trainings. =D
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The hardship we endured. Damn it studio 18 is for people who like to go for suana with clothes. We sweat like a godly cow man! BUT THAT WAS SHIOK! We get super drained from those steaming trainings, even we really no more energy we still whack through the whole full song, damn it that was madness, but we pulled it through together. Hahas. We got demoralised at times cause we really can't get everything right sometimes, but we shouted loudly "JIA YOU!" to ourselves and it really helped alot I feel, and Ivan and his sunshine face. I felt each other for that. The trainings that we had, I learnt alot from you guys in so many perspective. Thanks. =D
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I really can't describe this other than a very deep thank you cause my vocab limited. Thank you guys for giving me this chance. to be able to learn how to choreo and try out and feel the sense of happiness of certain things that i don't normally get the chance to do. I really thank you guys. =]
We tried our best, we put up a good show, and we have no regrets. =]
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Checkmatez!
The super no mo qi team. I'm really proud of being in this team. Love you guys. =DD
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Jia you to those that got into Semi! Feisty Volume, Joyce and the boys, Wasabi, Sushi, Kinderjoy, Refresh, Red Alert GO GO GO! You guys did great! keep it up! =D
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For this time, wei wo er tiao. =)
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Now that I've finally reached home, I don't have to endure anymore..
Hot tears scald my cheeks..
I admit, I'm very very sad..
2:41 AM
im alone; im emo;
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
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There's a reason for everything.
Sometimes I hope.
Then again, I'll just let it pass.
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12:18 AM
im alone; im emo;
Sunday, February 22, 2009
This picture shows Legendary Cash and Legendary Cash's Legendary girl, her name is Legendary Smell Back. And yes, that's my girl. =)
Sorry for I am not able to spend enough time with you. Sorry for I cannot be by your side at times when you need me. Sorry for I am not a good boyfriend. Although this all probably makes no difference.
Love you girl.
2:46 AM
im alone; im emo;
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Off to Korea!
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Err~ I think I have a whole chunk of things to write about Danzation, but I needa leave for Korea today so I'll update about Danzation when I get back yea? Hahas. Will be back on the 28th or 29th. And I know I'll miss out on alot of activities! Night cycling, christmas party, hanging outs. Damn~ No worries, I'll be back very very soon! Takkaire of yourselves alright! Miss you guys. =)
You know I'll miss you too. =)
Don't Emo ah~ Love you dear. <3
12:29 PM
im alone; im emo;
Thursday, December 11, 2008
I really hate myself now, blaming myself extremely.
Regret. Guilt.
WHY DID I DO THIS?
The things we been through, the times we shared, the moments we had..
All broken..
A freaking stupid mistake made..
Wo zhen de bu gan xing..
I really don't want things to turn out this way..
I DON'T WANNA LOSE YOU. I really don't..
Now I really feel.. Nothing elses matters.. really nothing else..
No mood for anything..
I just want the trust.. Don't care bout any other things anymore..
Nothing is more important..
Emotions, I won't hide it, or maybe I can't control it.
First time I ever felt like this, Its killing me..
I really don't want it to be this way..
Please.. bu yao zhe yang.. I really can't take it.. Its unbearable..
Then again, It's me that caused this, can only blame myself, its all my fault..
Its no use but, truly.. sorry.
10:10 PM
im alone; im emo;
Sunday, November 23, 2008
I wish I would not let you feel this way.
I wish there wouldn't even be chances that you'll feel this way.
I wish I can find ways, so as not to let you feel this way again.
I wish.. I really wish..
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What a useless guy I am.
Really hurts to see..
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My whole body is aching all over, super aching kind.
Not to mention the injuries.
Dance is more important?
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No, to me, you're more important than alot other things.
9:50 AM
im alone; im emo;
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Danzation's getting nearer. I think I'll die by the changing of costumes on that day -.- hahas.
..................I'm a happy boy. Cause of you.
..........................Perseverance. We will pull through.
..............Trust. I will show.
.............Determine. That I will.
...............Security. You will feel.
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Alot people having zombie faces lately. Need more sleep need more sleep! Drink lots of water guys. Please don't try out any weird stuffs, at least after 19 & 20 Dec. You know who you are, take care of your body ah! =]
Having you here, nothing else matters.. =)
12:52 AM
im alone; im emo;
Saturday, November 08, 2008
Hmm, I'll try my best to control.
Things are getting tougher, 3 out of 7 is starting to raise..
I will pull through. Stop thinking too darn much, cause nothing's gonna change.
Live the way how it is, and enjoy the days that come.
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Danzation. our months of effort, the things we're gone through, the sleepless nights we had together, the late night trainings we gone through, the huge amount of time we spent for this. Danzation, everyone's hard work. You wanna know what have we all been doing and preparing during these few months? Come watch us. I'll assure you, It'll be worth it.
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Watch me, I'll show you.
I want you to be my future. =)
1:11 PM
im alone; im emo;
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Why are there things that look so easy but seems super hard for me to achieve it? I really can't figure it out. Hmm.. Ahh it's ok forget it. Maybe some things are meant to be this way.
~Random thoughts~
- Finally got the chance to take Ann's class again. Felt very happy, cause it's been a very long time since the last class was taught. Let's take the long way home~
- My dad is back home.
- Why can't I know?
- So many questions I wanna ask, but I knew, the answer would most probably still be the same.
- Me teach/clean steps? I don't know about it, but I'll definitely try my best.
- So.. ..? I don't know.. But, as long as I believe. Time will tell..
- I'm trying my best to control it.
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So many things going through my mind. Feels kinda.. Argh~ I shouldn't be thinking so much. Hope. Miracle.
Nothing's gonna change my mind. I'm serious about this.
1:42 AM
im alone; im emo;
Sunday, November 02, 2008
It has been a very very very long time since I had dinner with my family (excluding my dad, he's still overseas since a week ago and still is not back yet). *Hmm, what will you do if I told you about my plans?* Finally I get to have a whole day's rest. Well not exactly, cause I missed out the self prac at 12pm, overslept big time. So sorry guys.
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It's always nice to have a cup of nice warm hot chocolate on my table beside me, a guitar which is nicely tuned, and a few scores to go along with it. Another great alternative is to watch some exciting Animes with my huge screen laptop. Hahas. This is my form of escapism last time. I don't need to do anything fanciful, don't need anything too bazaar, just chilling around is enough for me. =) Returning to the good old days for just once today. Hahas.
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Tomorrow will be another day of busying dance, it's tiring, but I still enjoyed it nevertheless. The effort put in by everyone, Danzation, we will show you that this few months of pracs and pracs and rehearsals are not for naught. Jia you everyone!
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Please give me a chance to show you. Really hope.. Just once is enough. Understanding.
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I'm starting to miss you already.. T~T
11:28 AM
im alone; im emo;
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Dance hard, study hard, dance harder.
Strive to be. I will be.
Xiang xing! =D
What could he be possibly thinking?
He calls 120k cheap -.-
WLN. =))
3:33 PM
im alone; im emo;
Sunday, October 26, 2008
Everytime, I'm so afraid of facing this 3 out of 7, but there's no avoiding it. It hits me harder and harder. I'm really scared. Wished I fell sick, so that I would have a valid reason to cut off from the world and hide myself in my overly peaceful and silent room..
WO BENG KUI LE..
9:28 AM
im alone; im emo;
Saturday, October 25, 2008
Small talks with sis is always good. Hey sis, thanks. What you said, really kept me going. But I still hopes for his acknowledgement. I'm gonna change that China man mindset of his, thats for sure, someday.
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I don't know why.. but..
Hmm, maybe..
Really nothing.. except for..
I.. ahhh nevermind.
Like I said,
no matter what you're thinking,.
10:04 AM
im alone; im emo;
Saturday, October 18, 2008
I got a feeling after danzation,
if I run 2.4km surely at 10 mins range, or maybe below. hahas!
.Should I get Sennheiser, Creative, or a special earpiece that supports iphone and has a small built-in mic, but still can use for normal mp3? Prices are, $45, $25, $10 respectively. The Sennheiser phone is not original, but its almost the same quality as the real one. Creative and the iphone brand is original one. Creative is like the one Ivan is using, not bad eh, very lightweight, can use for self prac without restricting my movements. The Sennheiser one has a very tiny built-in volume control, and also very lightweight, not bulky at all, can use for dance also. the iphone brand one also very lightweight eh, but the special thing is that it got a mic. Quality check, ranking from the best first, Sennheiser, Creative, iphone brand. hahas.
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Ok after reading what I have typed myself, maybe I'll just take the Sennheiser one. LOL. Its original retail price is at $189. SO EX! Although this non-original one only cost $45, but I've never bought a earpiece more than $30 before. hahas. This time I try try see how. hahas.
.Understanding and communication.
Xiang xing jiu ke yi, bu xiang xing jiu bu ke yi.
swee kiat theory. =)
SDBY, WZYNYG. =)
10:05 AM
im alone; im emo;
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
YES! My new laptop is finally here!
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Although its a 2nd hand laptop, but i kinda like it alot. Dell 17" screen, white and silver colour, GREAT sound system built in(the volume level is enough to fill my whole house with music, not joking), and it is said that this laptop is meant for gaming, which means this laptop's specifications are quite good. Kok sheng said that this laptop is super heavy to carry, but I find it quite alright though, not as heavy as you guys think. Or maybe its just me. hahas.
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Another good news, I am able to get back my data from that old acer laptop! and the person helped me make the internal hard disk of the old acer laptop into a portable hard disk. which means I got all my precious data back, plus! a 120 gb hard disk? hahas. Now all that's left is to bring it to school to install the necessary softwares from the helpdesk.
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I'm quite happy now.
Satisfied in a way.
Thanks Mum! Love you Dad.
Don't say that your fat, cause you're not! And I don't care. =)
ZWYLZYN. hahas.
11:09 AM
im alone; im emo;
Monday, October 06, 2008
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你說不愛了 于是我就承擔
不問我心里想的是相反
陽光很燦爛 我卻笑不出來
他讓我看清楚你已離開
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我忍著悲傷和無奈
就躲在房間不出來
無法阻擋時間在快轉
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只能把愛藏在回憶深海
不想面對的是學著習慣成自然
我會把愛隱藏到誰都看不出來
大海在繼續卻與你無關
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你說不愛了 于是我就承擔
不問我心里想的是相反
陽光很燦爛 我卻笑不出來
他讓我看清楚你已離開
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那動人完美的獨白
沒說完你就先離開
就算遺憾我也不推翻
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只能把愛藏在回憶深海
不想面對的是學著習慣成自然
我會把愛隱藏到誰都看不出來
大海在繼續卻與你無關
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這不是鴕鳥的心態
只是我還無法釋懷
我還愛你再不會說出來
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只能把愛藏在回憶深海
不想面對的是學著習慣成自然
我會把愛隱藏到誰都看不出來
大海在繼續卻與你無關
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只能讓愛離開回憶深海
不想面對的是只能學著習慣成自然
對你的愛寂寞讓我卻還在依賴
你要的幸福卻與我無關
你要的幸福卻與我無關
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Fake a smile. Things will be easier for everyone this way.
I'm not giving up still, I'll always be here. =)
2:15 PM
im alone; im emo;
Friday, October 03, 2008
Why am I so stubborn..
I really can't help it..
Feeling so helpless..
Heavy.. Very heavy..
Starting to hate myself..
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As darkness pours, wintriness fills
This long path of mean hardy road
Been walking since I can't even remember
Yet, I can't even see the horizon
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In the end, everything comes back to the same thing
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Emo boy, that, I will be. Alone, feels somewhat more easy.
Afterall, I still.. can't..
Sorry, let me be, alone.
12:18 PM
im alone; im emo;
Thursday, October 02, 2008
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That "Next time" never came..
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Risks, afraid that I can't bear it.
But afterall, regret strikes me harder.
Revealing painful truths.. Should I? Or should I not.
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Is there no chance at all?
3:04 PM
im alone; im emo;
Friday, September 26, 2008
Sometimes, heeding advices is good, it guides us, but we should not let it lead us.
Remember to always follow your heart, this way, there will be no regrets.
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What. How. When.
Waiting.
Sun qi zi ran ba.
Holding on tightly still.
Feeling stronger, day by day.
4:47 PM
im alone; im emo;
Monday, September 22, 2008
Lost..
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"What to do?"
"What can I do?"
"What should I do?"
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I don't have the answer to these questions when I don't even know which subject it is refering to. As a marker, we could all just refer to the answer sheet, but sometimes, the most important thing is to see what answers, or what different point of views apart from the answer sheet did the others gave.
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I really don't know why.. Maybe this is what they call unconditional.
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Alot of people are starting to fall sick these few days, just wanna ask you guys to drink more water, rest more, and DON'T ONLINE TILL SO LATE! -.-
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Hey you! get well soon. =)
12:04 AM
im alone; im emo;
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
My laptop finally crashed.
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I shouldn't have forgotten to take Kok's hard disk home 2 days back, if not I would've had back up in that hard disk now. And to think that I wanna borrow from Kok the hard disk today, but it crashed on the same day before I get the chance to back up! ARGH! MY PHOTOS! MY VIDEOS! MY EVERYTHING! GONE! Wo zhe liang nian lai, mei hao de hui yi, ALL GONE. Real depressed. Got nothing to say.
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Guess this is it, I won't be able to come online that often anymore. Till the day my laptop gets repaired. Really sad. Wo hui gen jia xing ku.. Bye~
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The hardest thing to do is to watch the one you love,
love someone else.
3:53 PM
im alone; im emo;
Take Care Ken!
All the things you taught me, I will remember it..
Hope to see you again real soon! And when you come back, we will show you that we have improved.
Thanks, for guiding me, for your acknowledgement, for everything. Definitely will remember this handsome face of yours.
Felt really sad.. the things you are going through, the things that you had to sacrifice.. Her..
I felt a very strong bond between you and the others when we are standing at the glass door. The really good times that you had with everyone of us. Imagine.. The ups and downs, the things you and your close friends have gone through all these years, and now you have to leave for a very long time.. JJ, I really can't control anymore when I see Ken and JJ hugging at that moment, its too unbearable, couldn't control my tears.. Really too sad.. Now after you have gone pass that door, it will be maybe 1 year from now till we see you again when you visit come during your holidays.
Being that fun and cheerful guy that is always bringing smiles to our faces. I'll miss you man. Wish you all the best! See you soon. =)
3:28 PM
im alone; im emo;
Monday, September 15, 2008
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credits to Xiao Bao.
2:43 AM
im alone; im emo;
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Gotta really work hard. Pirouettes, isolations, accent, ding dian, extensions, energy level and many more. Danzation. I'll work hard to improve! Dance, I don't know how far I might be able to go with it, but as long as I'm doing something I really like, nothing else really matters.
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NS, I think it's not that bad after all? Like they said, guess I should just enjoy the process, cause it's actually quite fun.
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Hope my muscles don't ache BADLY tomorrow. I know for sure that it's gonna ache again after krump practise, but please don't ache badly~ Cause I wanna enjoy the basketball session tomorow! Hahas. Ok I think I should sleep a little bit earlier today. Nights guys.
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You see things; and you say, "Why?"
But I dream things that never were; and I say, "Why not?"
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Believe and you will see. I'm still trying hard to accept this sentence.
Qing bu zi jing..
3:02 AM
im alone; im emo;
Friday, September 12, 2008
Hey bro, it's really been a long time since I saw you. 1 or 2 months maybe? Even though we did not meet up for a very long time, I don't know why but we still don't feel uneasy around each other. hahas. 6 years of solid friendship and still counting. Sorry that I am always busy with dance and I'm not able to meet up with you and the rest. But don't worry! I'll always squeeze out some time to meet up. Then we will find a place to eat, chill and catch up on everything we can think of. Come to think of it we won't spend much this way too yea? Definitely a good idea. hahas!
Take lots of care when you are back home alrights? And help me bring back some food and stuffs! hahas. All the best, and congrats. Zu ni xing fu kuai le ah! =) Brothers forever. Regardless of nationality. hahas!
When you're happy, I'm happy. =D
When you're sad, I'm sad. =(
2:45 AM
im alone; im emo;
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Feeling so strong.
Determined.
I will change for the better.
I don't wanna be like this forever.
Not gonna let go.
Still holding onto you, "Hope".
I miss you.. =(
1:20 AM
im alone; im emo;
Monday, September 08, 2008
This morning, my dad fetched me to school. Indeed today I am very tired in the morning, and I'm quite surprised when my sis told me that my dad could fetch me to school today for I don't know why also. Heard maybe he needs to do some work around there so he could give me a lift, but I think he's just shy to say that he wants to fetch me to school knowing that I am very tired dancing long hours everyday. =)
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I was suddenly reminded of Mia's post about his mum. Unshared love. I realised I have mountains of it between my dad and I. I really appreciate alot for what you did for me. When I'm sick and have to rest at home alone while everyone's out, you would call and check up on me and ask whether I have eaten my meals and how am I feeling.
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Although EVERYTIME when you talk to me, you will use a very very cold and mean tone, but I still feel your care and concern deep within. My mum told me that everytime when I have some problems and I tell her about it, she would tell you about my problems and sometimes you would give solutions to her and ask her to help me.
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I love you. I wanted to say these 3 words to you face to face, but i really don't have the courage to say it. I really wanted to talk to you like how I can talk to mum, but I don't really know how to. I hope, you would really come for Danzation and see what have your son been putting in so much effort for. I wanna make you proud, and I will uncover ALL the unshared love between you and me on Danzation. Love you dad. =)
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Sometimes I wonder,
wouldn't it be nice if its just you and me.
Gazing upon the starry night skies.
12:17 AM
im alone; im emo;
Friday, September 05, 2008
Really wish I could stop time, and tomorrow never comes.
I'll try, but one thing for sure, feelings deep down within won't change.
It's true good times always comes to an end, even after bends.
I hope to break this barrier of glass, so that this will not be the last.
Holding you so tightly everytime, baby I don't wanna let you go.
12:56 PM
im alone; im emo;
